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Tree is the dimension of the true healthy father. It is the felt experience of inner alignment down the central channel of our body.   Tree is the discerning awareness, that recognizes all parts of the whole within each of us and their alignment with our true nature.  From here, we can create a unified mind and feel our divine purpose and unify that purpose with the divine will becoming the embodied Bodhicitta, a being in devotion to being in service.

With the father line, or divine masculine, it’s more about being able to rely on someone, and have a sense that we are held and guided.

With the father line there is something that must learn to recognize that there is a ground that holds us and that there is a presence that guides us, and to trust that that presence is actually with us in every moment and with all things. And that presence, as we accept it into our being, becomes a deep inner knowing that is able to have an inner compass guided by God’s presence, this intimate here-ness that knows how to walk and not feel alone. That can feel the directions that we must step in. And we feel as if our feet are actually walking within God’s feet. Feeling as if our steps are guided, that our steps are not separate from a much larger stream of intelligence and knowing, and that that stream is serving that which must be served.

That stream is in every moment navigating circumstances. It is a feeling as if God’s light is pouring through the very center of our being, and lighting up our inner knowing, our interior navigator. And there is a sense that God’s presence is intimately a part of everything, and is like a reassuring guide that helps to navigate the challenging waters. That helps to be a light that can pierce through clouds or darkness. That can illuminate truth from delusion. That can recognize and know God’s wisdom.

But to be able to access this deep inner knowing that is interconnected with God’s knowing, that is guided by this ultimate Source, there is a need to have trust. And the trust comes only from the felt experience that “He”, this Source that is more as a Father, is with you, and in a reliable way: one that you can truly rely on.

That is always there. A feeling of a presence that doesn’t leave. For those of us who have had fathers who have left us, or with whom we haven’t felt deep presence, this is an experience we need to feel in order to break through the clouds of our early conditioning. We must come into our own direct connection with the ultimate Father as he is offering Himself in this intimate connected presence that streams at the center of everything. But to know it we must work with the parts of us that are afraid of untrusting, or that our own do-ers, our own parts that feel like we are alone and that we must guide ourselves… to know that that aloneness is the cloud – that sense of “it’s all up to me”, “I can’t rely” – that is the cloud, and it must be seen through.

We must pierce that cloud with this presence.

This presence can be felt from the everywhere-presence. But for some of us we may need a person to person transmission. Like in the minis in which we practice the bond, we need to feel this presence from other people who know it. We need to feel that this presence is with us, and that it is reliable, and that we can lean into this presence, and it will not go. The true father does not abandon, the true father does not judge, the true father is here with you, loving presence that supports and guides you in everything.

So we must come to recognize and know this Father, knowing that the ultimate source of this Father is this divine intelligence, this ultimate ground of this knowing. And we may need to practice this with others who can stand in it and help us recognize its truth and help the parts of us that have not been able to recognize this truth, and help those parts of us feel what they need to feel in order to process the clouds that are obscuring this truth from our experience and our awareness.